Hitting The Wall

Last week I ‘hit the wall’!

It was Thursday, and it was like any other day. But one thing was different. I was feeling rather emotional. Teary. For apparently no reason at all.

And for you guys who don’t think it’s manly for us men to cry, here’s what I’ve done in the past. When I got married my wife had a beautiful handkerchief that she held on the day, and I ended up using it. And when our first child was born, the nurse brought in a drink of water for my wife, who at the time was in major labour, and I ended up drinking it. So yes, I have to admit that I might just be the most emotional person in my family.

But let’s get back to last Thursday.

All day I was fighting back the tears. Couldn’t put my finger on why I was feeling so emotional. So by the time I turned up for my regular weekly coaches meeting, I was done.

As my coach continued to ask me certain questions relating to my business, water began to well up in my eyes until I had to leave the meeting. Fortunately, my two eldest children were at the meeting and so were able to keep the coach company while I sought to regain my composure.

However, on returning to the meeting, I discovered that the children had been sent away by the coach. And that’s when it happened. I balled. I blubbered and then I balled some more. And this was in the middle of a public place – a cafe. And it wasn’t because of the coffee.

Why did I do that?

My coach helped me realise that I had, over recent weeks, continued to take on board things and thoughts that were not mine to be taken on board.

With the expansion of my business I had for some reason decided to carry a load that my body should not, and wasn’t built to carry.

Now as a Christian I should know better….because God’s Word says:  ‘Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.’ 1 Peter 5:6,7

Also ‘Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.’ Psalm 37:5

And Philippians 4:6,7 ‘Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.’

Unbeknown to me, I had allowed anxiety, worry and concern to build up in my life until my own body rejected it.

It took tears to unveil what was happening in my life and a business coach to identify what needed to be done to rectify the situation. And finally when I got back to listen to what God had to say about the situation, I had to repent and get right with Him and move forward with my life once again, guilt free and as someone who had learnt yet another life lesson.

Tags: Overcoming

Posted: 28/04/2006